Oh my has it been forever since I have done this. Well we are coming up to June 20th which will be the service for Sally, Grandpa and Grandma Broberg. The kids and I will go out and place flowers on the dedicated spot. We will not be participating in the Broberg gathering. This was a very difficult decision for me but I really don't think I could emotionally do it "again" and also I am not going to go over there when my husband will not be there. His father and him are still not talking and I feel it is not my place to show my presents without him. We will grieve again in our own way.
Other then that school is out, the kids have been playing hard and spending time at friends homes and our home. Clint has beenvery successful in his minnow and leech baiting. I hope this continues so we can start our own business to pass down to the kids.

Spring is almost here

I am excited about the weather but depressed cause there is nothing to do outside. I haven't wrote for quite sometime. It is amazing how things happen. Yesturday I checked my fb and I had a message asking if I knew Sally Broberg. My heart sank and I began to type yes. Here one of her childhood friends had been searching for her for quiet sometime. We began to chat back and forth and we explained to each other our connection we had with Sally. My heart was suddenly lifted instead of sunken. Her friends name is Margaret and she seems wonderful. I believe she has a strong faith in the lord and I believe she is very kind. It is just amazing how small the world really is. I am excited about the weather. It just seems to brighten everything up. I hope everyone has a wonderful Spring...

Some days

Some days do you just feel like what are we doing? Today is one of those days for me. Hannah had her surgery on her ears and tonsils. She is slowly recovering. But hopefully getting better.

I wonder where I will be in 5 years. I wonder where everyone will be in five years from now. I wish sometimes things were answered before they happen. Today I had to sit back for a minute and be thankful for the things I do have at this moment in my life and how other lives are much much worse then mine. As I was discouraged over work and financially, I remembered that I have my family and my children. I am so thankful for the way my life has ended up. I have made so many mistakes in my life, and I am thankful for how my life changed for the better. I guess there are times when we need to stop and be grateful for the life we do have for others there life has ended. I am not making much sense at all and that is exactly how my mind is today. Maybe I will try to Blog another day

i will praise you in this storm

Well as I have talked in previous posts I think the storm is getting stronger. The song from counting crows explains it all. There is a storm that is becoming stronger. I think that through the times of hardship and hurtful hearts that the only one we need to count on is the Lord. As the song says as we thought you would have reached down and wiped our tears away by now. He is the man who gives and takes away. But he has not left our sides. We need to continue to praise him in the storms. His whisper is still in the rain, he is still with us.

I think that we are all at challenging times in our lives. If it is with the dealings of loosing a loved one, loosing your job, loosing your homes etc. All of it is the storm. The construction of our world is feeling the pain also. The volcano in Alaska, the ice storms in Arkansas, the bitter cold in Minnesota. We all need to be strong to fight this storm. So I hope everyone still believes he is with us...

MY POOR FRIEND

Yesterday I got news my friends husband past away. She found him at home. How terrible. There lives were starting to get better after loosing one of there children in a car accident last July. So they thought. I really think truly this poor friend could not take anymore pain. She has come so far in her life, breaking through so many of her addictions. I just wish he could have. There poor kids, how heart breaking this all must be for them. So again I say "What is next?" As I talked with her yesterday she said that she is questioning her faith. She asked "If he is such an awesome God, why has he let this happen?" The words came out of my mouth so freely. I read the book "The Shack" and I think it answered some of these questions people have. I explained that God does not have control of these situations. He just takes care of us when they happen. God would never intentionally hurt someone. He try's to protect us but things happen and if you believe, he will take care of us. I prayed for Penny last night. I prayed for her to get some rest and to find comfort. For her to keep her strength for the children and her well being. Dear Lord there are sooo many people who need your love, please comfort and support those in need.
There are so many people having to make such great sacrifices these days. Jobs are being eliminated, people are loosing there health care and wage cuts. People are having to make some big decisions and I pray for them that they will be the right ones. (BILLIEJO) I hope that things truly will turn around in the world and we will all become stable again.

BURRRRRR

This morning I had -40 at home. The kids still had school.......

Clint headed out early to go trout fishing. What can bring someone to even step out the door when it takes your breath away and freezes in midair... I just wanted to stay in bed under my warm blankets..
Next week is going to warm up. Its going to be a heat wave for crin' out loud. 27 above sounds really good. The winter is getting long. I am ready for summer heck I will take April showers.
I got Hannah's prescription filled and she is starting to feel better. I am relieved. I had to write her a note today so she couldn't swim in gym. poor girl. Well not much to talk about today so I will try another day...

SOMETIMES I JUST WORRY

I have a hard time thinking of my kids waiting for the bus in -31 degree temps. I worry when I have to be to work at 7 am and the are standing in this frigid weather. I worry.
I heard back from Hannah's specialist and she has to take a skin allergy test that takes up to 2 hours. they scratch and prick the skin with lots of different allergies that we have in our areas. Oh and guess what she can't get in till march. So she is still on a nasal spray and zyrtec. She seems pretty good though she says her ears drain at night. I worry about her. Last night when I got home Clint had made stew and biscuits. The kids were all wound up and I was tired. When I just stopped in the kitchen to listen to the noise and commotion of the kids I could hear Hannah over them all. Which is a sign to me of infection again because she isn't hearing herself and she speaks louder then. So I have a perscription for augmentin that I will be filling today. ugh. I so worry about her.
Last weekend on Saturday Clint and I got to go snowmobiling together. We met up with some good friends from Bigfork. It was great to see them. They are older then us and we really truly admired there relationship as Clint and I were starting ours. Needless to say they don't seem as happy anymore. There children are both out of the house now and I think they are noticing the change. I worry about those days, I look forward to them but I bet it is going to be strange. We live everyday for there entertainment and I wonder what it will be like when they are older. I don't think they will move to far away from home but I worry.
My mom stopped in to work yesterday and she is worried about her job. She has 2 years left and she was planning on retirement. It might be sooner. I think alot of people are very worried about what is going to happen next. I worry too. I told my mom that she will be OK and that it is out of her hands and she can only do what she can. She has always been such a hard worker.
The other night I was cleaning the bathroom and I had my ice cream bucket with my pine sole in it and wash cloth and I empty it in the toilet and this time I didn't hold on to the wash cloth and it went down the toilet. I worry that it will get clogged and that we will have septic problems.
I worry about my friend Lesley, I worry she is OK. I worry that she might not now that I love her and I think of her all the time. I pray for the Lord to give her strength for I don't think I would have it if I was in her situation.
I worry about Bill being all alone now that sally has pasted on. I worry about his drinking. I worry about his leukemia coming back and Sally not there to help him.
I worry about my husband trapping bait so we can survive this winter. For what he does is dangerous.
I worry about Shelley and her stern attitude. For she is demanding and stubborn like her father. But she has a heart of gold.
I worry about Nick because he is so hard on himself about school. He compares himself to others and considers himself dumb. For I think he is so smart. He has the heart of gold also and he is polite and kind and loving. I worry about him to get older AND BITTER.
SOMETIMES I JUST WORRY.