the weekend is gone

Back to work today. Not feeling so well I think the winterery weather is already gettin me down. I have a sinus infection I think and 2 kids at home sick which I think one is really only sick. My weekend consisted of nothing but work on Saturday and then went home and rested. Sunday I slept until 10:30 wow.... Then went to walmart for the necessities and came home usually I like to make a big meal on sundays but instead I made tater-tot hotdish... nummy. Watched a movie and went to bed and woke up this morning even feeling worst. But I made it to work. Hannah is with her grandpa trapping today and tommorrow. She really enjoys spending time with him. I think Clint feels bad that she doesn't go with him but I think my dad has more patients... He never did when I was growing up. I think it comes with age. My dad does more things with my kids than he ever did with me growing up. Whats up with that? I am very happy that he does things with my kids though. I know they really enjoy it.
I am scared for the winter I think people and getting really crabby already, maybe cause of the Election, weather, no money, etc. I think when winter is really here people are not going to adapt like they usually do. I really hope that the lord watches over everyone to keep them from not cracking up. If you know what I mean.

I think of my dear friend Lesley and her family everyday. I pray for her to stay strong. I can not fathem what she is still going through. I think of her as I write this because I know how much she dislikes winter... Mostly just the cold... I pray that the lord keeps her warm this winter with his arms wrapped tightly around her. I am so happy for her that she has found a strong Christian man that is in her life that keeps her faith stronger with him. I just always have wondered why tragedy strikes the nicest people sometimes. I wish it would just wipe out the bad in this world instead. But I guess the Lord gives everyone a chance and forgives them all If they offer there life to him. It sounds pretty simple and really is. I am glad I did. The things that I have done that are so bad, to have the feeling in my heart that he has forgave me for that is amazing. Some people still have never forgave me. But I am thankful he did... may god be with my children tonight and my family and friends. I love them all....

boy oh boy

I haven't wrote for a while. I am leaving work today at 2 to go home and do chores. I am so behind on things. Life really gets carried away at times. Shelley has her last swim meet of the year this sat. She is pretty excited. She has done very well in swimming this year. Hannah could care less about any sport she likes to watch them but not attend them. Nicholas I think will be athletic. I think he is going to be very strong like his dad. Clint has been out of town the last couple days and it definetaly has been different. He hasn't been gone for work in a long time. Nick got a new bed last night so he was pretty excited. I really want to do the girls next but I am going to control my self with the spending a wait patiently. Maybe we will have a good deer processing season. I think Nick was first because I still sleep with him every night until he falls asleep, So I think I was looking for some extra room also. People think that is bad to do but I think that is my time with him. Soon enough he will be gone out on his own and blah blah. I still sleep with my husband every night but not until after nick falls asleep. I think that is why people think it might be bad, but I do go in my room after he falls asleep.
Well winter is definetly here. That is one of my chores when I get home is to clean out the ashes in the wood stove. So I can get a fire going. It is actually a beautiful fall day today. Well I am really blabbing instead of Blogging today. So I will try again another time. God bless to all who walks in his path.

from a wonderful friend

I just read your blog for Saturday. So I had to go read about Russell, how sad. I want to give you something, I have never shared this with anyone before and you can certainly pass it on if you would like. I wrote this many years ago and it just seems to fit: On this world that spins so fast, we can hope all good things will last.But the reality that we all know, to often we must all let go.Push past the pain and loneliness, block out that throbbing in our chests.Hold our heads ever so high, fight the tears and try not to cry.Walk straight and proud like nothings wrong, and show the world that we are strong.But if for one single day, I could take some things away.I'd take back your hurting and loneliness, and mend the heart within your chest.I would never let you wonder why, and I'd wipe each tear that you did cry.There are so many answers we will never know, like why it hurts so bad when we must let go.All to often the "good things" in life must end, and I'm sorry for the pain it has caused you, my friend. BillieJO

Thank you BillieJo,
I am at home today with a migraine and I just thought I would check my mail,
I am hurting in the head from all the conbfusion that is out in this wonderful world today. I think so much and I worry so much. I think that is why my head hurts today.

Why do people lie? Are they trying to get attention that they never had or is it becasue they had always had it and are addicted too it. There are so many people hurting today and why would anyone want to make them out to be worse off then anyone else. I am sick tod.ay and I can't stand it. I took my medication Imatrex so that I start to feel better because I don't like to feel bad. I don't understand why anyone would want to feel bad... The risks are so high for someone who lies.. I teach my children to not beafraid to tell the truth. Is lieing a disease? I think it is.... I am leaving it at that I am going to go lay down and let me medicine work so i can be normal again because i like being normal and feeling good....
oh I finished the book grace this weekend and pasted it on to a friend I loved it.....

MY HEART IS HURTING

I just read my friends blog and my heart just hurts for little Russell. I can hardly even think of anything to write about. I am going to have to come back later to this blog when I get my thoughts out on what to say about this. I am just really sad for him and the rest of the family.

a day to be proud..

Well last night I was proud of my kids, the night before Hannah had found a $300 zune music device on the bus and brought it home. All the kids were fighting over it. Then I stepped in and said why are you fighting over something that is not any of yours. I explained to Hannah that she had to return it to the bus driver so that he can find who it belongs too. She was upset and said well mom someone took my nintendo ds. I explained, but wouldn't it have been nice to of had that person be honest and return it to the bus driver? She said yes. Now Nick was another story he actually cried all night and was mad at me because he thought he could keep it because he has never had a music thing... Well I was very impatient and disappointed that he didn't understand. He is 9.. So after I calmed down I went in to his room where he was crying and I explained the rights again. I think he understood but was still upset. When my husband got home he new there was something wrong with me and I made it short and sweet and he said that is the right thing to doo. I took a deep breath gave him a hung and said I am going to bed. I tossed and turned all night with anger and disappointment. I know that kids have so many things these days and I can understand where Hannah was pulling herself in the direction of taking it because something has been taken from her. But by my guidance I think she realized and understands that she is a great honest person by doing what she did.



The next morning Nick was still angry, I was loud and annoying in the morning trying to be happy and shouting "rise and shine and give god your glory glory" He glared at me with annoyance but he smiled. It is very difficult to get our children in the right direction but If we don't they will become followers of the devil. It is our responsibility to guide them in the path that the Lord choices.



I pray for the Lord to protect my children and guide them to become honest and good people... Especially of theses times of trial for them.

WHY DO ACCIDENTS HAPPEN AND WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ALL OF US

Hello everyone I guess this is some place where i can layout my thoughts and feelings. I am excited to do that. I am not sure how many people will read this but I guess I just am doing it for myself and would like others to input or advice or just listen. It has been a crazy few months in the life of some very close friends of mine. A longtime friend of mine lost her 2 year child from a terrible accident, also my cousins husband was in a serious accident. So why I am starting this is to find some soul searching and also my first question in this blog is WHY DO ACCIDENTS HAPPEN?Is God telling us something, to have so many accidents happen at once? Is the world coming closer to an end and that he wants us to beaware of our Christianity???? The questions I am asking everyday is why he chooses the ones he does? We are all his children. There is a song on a local country station that says "We all want to go to heaven But not right now". Something like that. That is a very good statement. I know everyone I ask says that they are going to go to heaven. My children believe that and so do I. I want to meet my Lord and My Savior because maybe he is the one that can answer these questions I have. I read the Bible and that helps me with some of the questions I have. With the way our economy is today everyone is cautious and concerned of where we will all be financially and what will life be like for our children, will we hit a depression? Well I really do hope that we do. I know that sounds harsh but I think that is the only way we will get people in this world to really realize how well life really was for so many. I really want my children to realize that you have to work for things that you want you, shouldn't just put them on a credit card. When my husband and I started dating back in 1993 we had life made. So we thought. My husband was working construction and making $10.00 an hour and working hard, I was a nursing assistant making about $7.50 an hour. He baught a new boat, I think I had every new piece of clothing that the mall had shipped in. Then I was blessed with becoming pregnant so we found a piece of land for contract for deed and baught a used trailer house and moved in. I had a baby girl Hannah Renee, I work now at Avco financial services, we had a home and daycare and a rude awakening. But we still felt we had life made. I was crying in bed before I had Hannah and explained to my husband that I feel like I am such a sinner and looser because I got pregnant before we were married or for that matter engaged. So my husband ran down town and baught me a wedding set with his credit card and proposed to me that night. That is just another example of we had no money but man did we have credit. Every day I went to work I missed Hannah so much, I would always seem to need something at Wal-Mart, you know diapers, oh yeah and a new outfit for Hannah. So I would pull out that plastic card and purchase whatever I wanted. I would get my statement and look around and have nothing to show for my spending. The diapers were used and Oh yeah the outfit was ruined because hannah trew up on them and stained the new outfit. And guess what else I only sent ff the minimun payment because that is alls I had. This continued in our lives fo years. What I guess I am trying to say is that If there was a depression It would benifit us all. Ourselves and our children. We would all get back to the basics of our lives that our grandparents lived, sitting down at supper time as a family, talking about each others days. Enjoying the kill that dad got in the woods for dinner and thanking him for that and thanking God for providing us the wildlife. Listening to your family laugh together. Playing a game of catch outside with them, Instead of running all over to pick up kids here and there and never seeing them enjoying the sport until maybe a game and that is if you can make it there. Having the closens of family life. Having mom and dads come over for dinner, or gathering for a game of cards and listening to the radio, reading a book together with your kids. I have always said I was old fashioned. I proved that wrong when I went on shopping sprees and took out the plastic to pay for things that I really did not need. Then refinancing because you can't aford them. In the olden days or Depression days you did not get those luciours you didn't get anything until you had your money saved and then when you did get it man you took care of it and when it was old it was still like brand new.... Maybe all of this that I am sharing is all about why there are so many accidents that are happening.. Maybe we are to wake up and see that light that has been given to us by our Lord and Savior.. Maybe he is saving the young and bring them home to him now because we are all causing caotis here on his earth. Maybe he is teaching us to be thankful for what we have. When we have to struggle it makes us stronger people. I will continue on these thoughts again but for right now I need to go. peace and love to all
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