happy new year

Well I can honestly say I am so excited for a new year. This year was full of sadness, hurt, loss, and it seems like a lot of other horrible things. I pray for a great 2009.
We were invited over to Ron and Rachael's for New Years I am making a taco dip. I know I won't make it till midnight but maybe I will really try this year. If it will help bring a better year I will do anything. I pray for happiness to all sad people, I pray for financial relief for people who need it, I pray for food for the hungry, I pray for friendship and companionship for the lonely.
I sincerely hope that this year brings joy to all. Peace to those who are in need. I pray for the families who have had losses of loved ones as I have. I pray for healing for them.
That is about alls I have to say this time so again, Happy New Year to all....

happy holidays..

Well I had to bring Hannah into the specialist in Hibbing today for her ears. There is no infection which I new, but there is still fluid.. uggh. So of course they say tubes again. I expressed my frustrations to the poor lady and she said that she would recommend a ct scan and an allergy test. So we completed the allergy test after a couple tubes of blood and Hannah's anxiety was through the roof, and Hannah looks at me and says I am not getting a ct scan today. I explained it doesn't hurt at all and she just crumbled. "No Mom, I just can't do it." As I sat there and thought about it I decided to call Clint. I asked him what he thought about it and he said well maybe we should wait to get the allergy results before we spend more money on a ct scan if the allergy test comes back possitive. Well isn't he the smartest man alive I thought. So Hannah was relieved and the Doctor was fine with that. Hannah has had 3 sets of tubes in her ears and they never have worked... URGHHHH. Poor thing. But with just fluid behind the ear drum it can cause hearing loss. So it is a Big concern. She has passed her hearign test so far. Thank the Lord for that.

So other then that, tommorrow is Christmas Eve. I am praying that Lesley gets through this tough time without her little baby girl. I pray for Jeannie to have a safe trip back. I hope everyone has a safe Holiday.

merry christmas too all

Merry Christmas too all. Well another year is almost over and I think I am ready to start another. I hope that it is better then this year. There has been alot of broken hearts this year. My kids are really excited for the Holidays. I am struggling, as I do every year. It is very hard to enjoy Christmas when one side of the family doesn't get along.. I just don't understand. I talked to Tim and Lynne last night and wished them a Merry Christmas and thanked them for the card that they sent us. I hope that the new year brings open minds and hearts to all this new year. I hope people remember the meaning of Christmas. I pray everyone has a safe holiday season. I pray for Lesley to make it through these trying times without Gretta. I pray for Bill and the family to be strong without Sally. I now I need praying because it really is very tough. I pray that my family is safe and that my children and watched over by the Lord to protect them in this new year as they are getting to the age of trying times. Peer Pressure and all that other good stuff kids get to go through. I pray for everyone financial being through this recession we are going through. I hope everyone has a Very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. God Bless you all.

making it through another day.

Sally's service was Saturday in Kerville, I guess the weather was perfect and everything turned out beautifully. I am sure Bill had the best of the best for the love of his life. I talked to him last night. He sounded very confused still, I tried to comfort him as much as I could but then I told his, "Honestly Bill, if I new how to make you feel better I would do anything for you and myself cause I am really struggeling too. I told him that some days are better then others. I hear from alot of people that sometimes it gets better and sometimes it gets harder and harder. I am worried for him when everyone leaves and he is by himself. He is such a wonderful, kind and grateful man. I now why Sally loved him so much.
He told me alot of things last night that just made me feel good. He said I was Sally's favorite and that when they got back to Kerrville that she showed everyone our picture together. It is nice to know someone likes you as much as you like them. I will always love her, I will never forget about her, I will talk to her in my prayers every night before I fall asleep. Along with Grandma Mayme, Grandpa and Grandma Broberg, my aunt Glady's and Gretta, and Jim and everyone else who has crossed my life and has gone to be with out Savior.
Christmas is around the corner and we all need to remember what Christmas is all about and enjoy our time with the people we love and make the best out of all situations. I hope everyone a safe and happy holiday and I would like to remind everyone to be kind and considerate to others. My goal in life is to leave a good impression I want people to remember me as a kind and fun and loving person.... till next time. God Bless

WHAT NEXT???

Well I am not even sure where to start on this today. I know it has been awhile and I need to let some of my thoughts out. I lost another love in my life.. When is this tragedy going to end. On my way into work today I really struggled to fight back all the emotion that I am feeling. I lay in bed and I pray to god for at least a constant 4 hours to try and find some answers as to all of this tragedy... I lost Clint's Aunt Sally on Nov 25Th. She was so awesome. We became such good friends. In my eyes best friends. She came home for grandpa Broberg's funeral and we got even closer. We got grandma ready together to see her bond with her mom that has had dementia for years to watch her put her moms make up on and talk to her was so sweet. How Sally confided to me about things that had happened in her life as a child and as adult. Man she had some very tough times. She was so beautiful her smile was radiant. Her laugh was addicting. Her stories were entertaining. I can say that she was part of my family and that I really think we were as close as a mother and daughter. We would talk on the phone for hours, we would get our frustrations out we would laugh together and much better then all that we would learn more and more about each other every time we talked. I knew she was struggling when she finally reached home in Kerrville, her pain was really bad from traveling, she suffered from fibromalgia. Then I got the phone call that Grandma past away. I called her right away and she answered the phone "Hi there darlink", I new at that moment she didn't know yet. She cried so hard. She said the same thing to me when her dad died "that was my daddy", now "that was my mommy"... I could hear her sadness so much over the phone I wanted to reach in the phone and hold her. She couldn't make it home for her moms funeral, expense wise and also because of her pain. She hide her pain so well to everyone except her husband Bill he new more then anyone could ever imagine. I had talked to her last Saturday and she was crying really hard and she said that she was in alot of pain and that she really wanted Clint and his dad to talk. She was more stern then ever. I asked her if she new something that I should know? She said yes. I asked her if she had talked to Clint's dad she said yes. I said is there something wrong. She said he is sick and so is Lynne. I couldn't believe what she was saying. I can not make my husband do something that he doesn't feel he should do. Clint and his father have not talked for over 2 years. Now that I look back on that conversation I think she was telling me that they were sick but really she was.. I wish that she would of told me that instead. I think she was getting close to telling me that she wanted her life to be over but now I will never know, because she took her life. She took her life away from me, my kids who grew to love her, my husband who grew to love his auntie more then ever and everyone else that loved her. Is this better for her, I will never know.

I lay in bed night after night and I pray I ask the lord to hold my grandma Mayme, Gretta, grandpa and grandma Broberg and now my auntie Sally and my great aunt Gladys. May they have all met in the Lords house and have met each other. They all have something in common they new me...... And I loved them all.